Someday

I wonder if any of you have one of those days, wherein you had laid out perfectly how your day would go and then find all your plans derailed? I had one of those days today or rather I had one of those plans today but circumstances dictated that other things had to take precedence over what I had fancifully envisioned.

At first there's a pang of disappointment. Depending on how much you had anticipated, agonized or expected in regards to your plans, that is how deep the feeling of disappointment will go. Next might come an attempt to salvage part of the plan by trying to find a compromise of sorts so that the much awaited plan can still somehow be implemented. If that doesn't work, what comes next are a combination of two emotions -- anger/resentment or sadness/acceptance. All these happen of course in the space of either a few minutes or days, depending on how much you like nursing your disappointment.

As for me, I felt all those emotions in the space of several minutes. I guess I have gotten used to having the best of my plans waylaid. Being a mother for 11 months now, I have learned to roll with the punches or go with the flow. I had at one point in the early months been known to say to my spouse, "Mitzi proposes, Therese disposes".

So tonight, as I lay to rest one of my much anticipated (by me anyway since my husband had no idea) plan due to something more important, like my child's safety, I find myself saying in my heart, someday...hopefully someday I can take this plan out, dust it off a bit and maybe see it to fruition. Hopefully too, it would fulfill some of my expectations.