Death
Monday, March 15, 2010 at 11:50 am (Philippine Time), my Lola Pen passed away. Her death was unexpected in that she hadn't been sick enough to be hospitalized but her age, she was 90+ already, made even the simplest ailments dangerous. Her death brought with it a lot of regrets for me. Most of which I could sum up by saying, "I wish I had spent more time with her than I did." Being unable to attend her funeral makes me feel even more sorrowful. Yes Lola Pen, forgive me for not being there. Thank you for being the best lola in the world. I wish I could have been a better apo to you. I love you.

I fl lyk I'm the worst mom ever. I can't blame not having enough time to do the thing I still struggle over with my 16 month old since I'm home all day. Until now, for 16 months I have not taught my daughter how to sleep on her own and to sleep through the night. That's enough time for most mothers even those holding down a job,but not me. Sigh.